My Experience Living with Anxiety

Living with anxiety, that’s what this blog is about. I have been struggling with an anxiety disorder since I was twelve years old; I’m 24 now. I’ve experienced ups (like 2005) and downs (like 2009) and I realized that I’ve been on a quite a journey dealing with this anxiety thing. In May of this year I was hospitalized after a suicide attempt brought on by depression brought on by years of dealing with a severe anxiety disorder.

I’ve been out of the hospital for several months and I have a new clarity on my life. I decided to start a blog about my experiences with anxiety because I know that anxiety blogs can give a tremendous amount of hope and power to keep going on with this disorder.

I go through various phases where I hate anxiety because of what it has done to me. And, strangely I go through phases where I love it because it makes me me, the complicated person that I know wants to do well to the world. I know that if I can go on after all the traumas that I have been through that anyone can make it. So I am trying to put my life back together and I know it won’t be easy, but I know that I can count on my friends and my therapist and my family.

And for those of you out there who don’t have a good therapist, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU, GO GET ONE!!! I love my therapist because she is such a good listener and she totally gets me. Also, I like the way she views the world and the people living in it and wants to help people. If you have a therapist who just sits there and listens and doesn’t give you any hope and reassurance, I think you should get a different one. The fact is that my therapist is one of my best friends and I totally love her.

Anyway, since I have been out of treatment, my anxiety has been doing better. For one thing, I am on 4 mg of klonopin daily. I know that that may be risky but it has helped my anxiety so much. But being on klonopin is a personal decision that everyone needs to make for themselves and with their therapist.

I love my friends and family so much for their support through all the hard times. I know that when I first started “drifting” which is what I call it, I needed all the support that I could get. And you guys totally came through for me.
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Back to Anxiety Living! I want this blog to inspire people living with anxiety disorders to get help. I know that you may think that nobody can help you, but I assure you you will be surprised. I’m going to be talking about therapists, psychiatrists, anti-anxiety medications, meditation, spirituality, self-care, nutrition, herbal care, inpatient treatment, mental hospitals, dealing with anxiety, dealing with parents, dealing with relationships, sex and anxiety, death and anxiety, and living free from anxiety.

I know that’s a lot but I want this anxiety blog to count for something. So I hope you come back and read some more!